I can't believe that in only 6 days I will be in Israel! When Sandra invited me almost a year ago it seemed like such a long way away. Now here I am, suitcase open, contents strewn across the living room floor, with a to do list hanging on my wall reminding me of all the things I only have 6 days left to do!
It has been a long year. A long couple of years actually! Years of confusion, and frustration. Years of waiting on God (although not very patiently). Elizabeth Elliot once said, "Waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty; to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God whenever it intrudes upon ones thoughts." I'm not very good with uncertainty. I have expectations about how I want my life to turn out and things I want to accomplish and so far my life has not met any one of them. A friend and I were talking the other day about how it would be so much easier to "wait on God" if you could just know for sure that what you are waiting for is coming! The relationship you've been waiting for, that career you been hoping will take off... fill in the blank. But our plans and Gods plans don't always line up and so we are left in this position of waiting on God as he asks us to trust Him and His plan. That's where I've been these past few years, this year especially. I'm not really sure how this trip fits in with all that, but I have a feeling I'm about to find out...
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